Introduction

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Part I…..TRANSFORMATION

1 Wrong Side of the Tracks 

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2 A New Danger...The God of Fundamental Christianity  

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3 Death of a Spirit     

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4 One Dark Blot     

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5 Africa, Mission Work, and Motherhood    

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6 Hole in the Dike     

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7 Help!  

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8 Breast Cancer; Indescribable Fear of Death   

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9 Break Through     

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10 The Church's Rejection     

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11 Bittersweet     

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12 Divorced and Unstable     

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13 The Pendulum Swing; Primary Relationship with an Atheist 

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14 Trip to the Bottom    

110

15 New Age Christianity; New Wine in Old Wineskins? 

123

16 My Father's Ghost; Messages and Predictions  

134

17 ACOA (Adult Children of Alcoholics); Understanding More About Codependency and Addiction

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18 Who Can "Teach the Children"?    

158

19 Return to the Scene of the Crime    

169

20 Reconstructive Breast Surgery    

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21 Is This the Man?    

189

22 "I Think I Knew You in Another Life."   

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23 A Palace in India Long Ago?    

204

24 The Lotus   

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25 The Buddha and The Christ Reincarnated???   

226

26 Rainbows Bears and Butterflies; Symbols of Recovery 

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Part II…..TESTING THE WATERS

27 More Signs?    

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28 The Little Blue Socks    

250

29 Custody Trial From Hell    

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30 Who is Seven?    

275

31 Putting the Past in Perspective...From This Life or Any Other One

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32 Return of the Ghost 

290

33 Happily Ever After

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Conclusion    

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Bibliography    

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Footnotes    

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